OLD - AFTER WHORE OF A GIRLFRIEND CHEATED ON ME

Why hide behind a smile - When it feels so good to frown.

Walking around aimlessly trying to find an actual truth in this horror story of a world we have written together - one must wonder what has happened to the theme or ideology of the word truth. It all stems down from too much television, too much radio or too much advancement in technology. What everything in this world used to stand for has disappeared - without a trace - like a tarnished flower which didn't get enough sunlight or rain - withering away like a tumbleweed blowing through a deserted town. People aren't who they used to be - cell phones have become a way of communication and just the idea of meeting face-to-face has become an afterthought.

They say that music is the soundtrack to our lives - but why and how could it possibly be reflected upon the everyday situation. There is no median - no middle ground - no truth. Music is beautiful - but it is either representative to an extreme - happy or sadness. And that is the problem with the world today - there is no median in behavior - people are sad or happy - not okay or just alright. And the unfortunate truth is it's because of people, or more so, the propaganda the world has spun. In today's society - the response to "How are you doing?" by replying okay - means you're suicidal or thoroughly depressed. Fuck you - I'm just okay, today.

Chivalry is a past norm - outdated and returned in the 1950's like a bad present. Sure - enough people will open a door or pay for a bill - but that isn't an act of chivalry - it's an act of being masculine. And what happened to just the everyday thought of saying hello or excuse me when someone is walking in the same direct path as you? It's like we live in Iraq and the person who is crossing paths with you is about to blow you up - or throw a holy crusade of religion or bigotry your way. Their is no such thing as religious or sexual preference - it doesn't seperate shit. We live and breathe the same fucking air.

Look - we live in a cynical fucking world. The only virtue life is the idea of honesty - but let's be honest - it's a disappearing fad. Relationships will start on a lie - develop on a pipe dream and the only time honesty will appear is when it ends. The word "monogamous" is about as prevalent in the vocabulary of a relationship as "forever." The words will go hand in hand with each other - used in the beginning as a lie about bullshit promises - and used in the end when someone cheats and gets divorced.

And women should stop using the cliched line of "It's not you...it's me." It's clearly the guy - and what it clearly means is that you don't fuck well enough - or give her that imaginary tingle - or some other shit that a girl constantly reads from the Nazi magazines called "Cosmo." The ladies who write these articles are feminists - but not just feminists - man-hating feminists. A room full of dykes who would like nothing more than to rip off your penis and wear it on their sleeves as an act of patriotism.

However, there is one person who will come into your life and change you. And most of the time - we will fuck that up - give it up - or do something to destroy that one chance to be happy. But life isn't about regretting what it could have been or should have happened - It is about the epiphany one will have when that person at least came into their life. Cherish it - enjoy it - and sleep soundly at night knowing that you've encountered it and blew it because that epiphany came two minutes, too late.